Serinity Prayer

God grant me the SERINITY to accept the things I cannot change; COURAGE to change the things I can; and WISDOM to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking,as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will.
That I will be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

TRUST IN THE LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him; and he will direct your paths.

Proverbs 3:5-6

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Changes

Recently I ended a friendship and decided to end about ten others to stop all reacurring drama. Its not something that hit me with shock as I was preparing for it for a few months. But when it happened it hit me like a ton of bricks. A few days have passed and Im doing okay, whats funny is why do I care. Why do I need to do what theyre saying behind my back.. Well not technically because slandering on facebook is always meant for the person being slandered to read. Which, thankfully I havent read any of it. I closed the door to that world and Im not why it affected me the way it did.

I woke up this morning feeling refreshed with a task at hand for the day.. Ie:keeping busy. Thats what got me over it lo. Staying busy. So instead of mopeing around and not doing much Im going to stay busy because when I am I feel great.

Changing a negative into a positive might be hard at first but if you know it needs to change then have courage within yourself to do it.

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RaNdOm!

Have you ever set down to type out a blog and then read through it thinking, "what exactly am I trying to say here?" I just typed a few paragraphs and had a funny title for a blog and then I couldn't organize my thoughts. I'm giggling thinking.. I need one of those story building things we used back in english class. Lets put my main topic in the middle bubble and then branch off into little bubbles about things I can say about it. HA it's funny. I was even looking at my general blog page thinking... what was the point of this blog. Honestly I created this blog so I can go and type away about how I'm feeling and not get slammed with a ba-gillion likes and comments, yes I'm referencing facebook here. But as I'm typing this I'm thinking,"what is the real goal of this blog, how do I want it to be structured. Do I want to make it a place where I update my life more here than on facebook? Do I want to get blog fancy with adding pictures and poles and funny little side stickers?" Of course I'd have to figure out how to do all that stuff but do I want to? I dont know. I'm like any other woman who thinks of an idea or two or three and then in no time her mind is in so many places she can't concentrate. Like I read the other day something about not being easily distrac- OH there's a squirrel. Something along those lines is how I feel when I'm writing. Kind of like this post now, it's all over the page and yet I'm still typing :) Funny thing though have you ever just picked up a pen and paper and sat down and wrote all the random thoughts that are flying through your brain? Its really relaxing afterwards because when you're done you ask yourself... hmm what else can I write down? And there is nothing else to write down.

For those of you reading this just close out of my blog for the time being.. it's 2 a.m. here in Hawaii and I can't sleep although I need to be, but yet I'm typing away like you all can respond to me at a moment's notice. Oh I bet you guys can't wait to see what I have to type when my world calpses here a few months... delete me now people. I'm not one to be followed lol goodnight!

AHH ORDERS!!!

So I know I posted the other day about makin the days count and orders and blah blah blah... But Bryan aka my husband handed the orders to me in writing. Talk about a wave of emotions that just hit me. I want to cry but not in front of him right now. I have an ache in my stomach about all of it. I dont want him to go... I know he needs to and its his job but I dont want him to. Ive known an entire year that he was leaving its not like its new news to me but yet Im an emotional basket case. Go figure. Anyways I will be okay I just have to take a deep breath and keep moving.

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Dont Count the Days, Make the Days Count

So, many of you know my husband is in the United States Army and I proudly stand behind him 100%. This week I was given a technical count down as to when my husband will be going on his first deployment. I wanted, well heck I did. I cried the minute he told me he had his orders, silently of course in the back of the van since we were on the way to view our beloved island we live on. But thinking back on it I have went to that place in my mind where I say okay I have x amount of weeks left with him with this and this going on during this time, than this also which leaves us with x amount of free time. AHHH I had to stop I can't do it. I can't count down the days when he leaves us, and yes since this is our first deployment I still have an uncertainty if he'll be returning. I'm not trying to be morbid or anything but honestly who in my shoes wouldn't think that. This is all new to us, our kids, our family, our friends... our MARRIAGE. I'm scared as hell for this upcoming year but I'm putting on my big girl panties like everyone says I should and "deal with it" I'm not counting our time, I'm making our time count. I'm doing whatever his heart desires, which is a lot for me since I'm a bigger girl. I'm putting my anger moments aside, and the moments where I want to ring his neck when he decided at the last minute to take care of an online course that HAD TO be done today. The little things I'm letting go of, I will not and I repeat WILL NOT let our time restraint hinder what we do on a daily basis. I will leave off with this, I might not be here blogging as often as I planned on until he is off to save the world in his lovely ACUs.. but remember we are Home of the Free, because of the Brave!!

New Year

I'm two days from turning 25, yes half way to 50 and I can't believe it. I have been through a lot in my short time during adulthood. This year I will be enduring my first deployment with my husband. My goal is to prove to myself that I am strong and I can do this, I'd also like to blow people's minds by how amazing I handle this upcoming year. So I decided that this year along with the many other changing my children and I will go through I'd like to start a blog about how daily life is and other odds and ends that I do; ie: my crafting!! Please bear with the changes on this blog and if you know how to add pretties and other fun things to this (pictures) please tell me how!! Thanks for keeping up with me and my journey in Strong Tides!